Sometimes you go to the wrong place, but the right one comes to find you anyway. It might make you trip over it or speak to it, or it might come to you when a day is stripped apart by night and ask you to take its hand and forget this wrong place, this illusion where you stand.
I think of the mess in my mind and how you walked through it to stand before me, and let your voice come close.
I remember brick walls. There are moments when you can only stand and stare, watching the world forget you as you remove yourself form it - when you overcome it and cease to exist as the person you were.
It calls your name but you're gone. You hear nothing, see nothing. You've gone somewhere else and its a place where nothing else can touch you. Nothing else can swing on your thoughts. It's only yourself flat against the charcoal sky, for one moment.
Then flat on the Earth again where the world doesn't recognize you anymore. Your name is what it always was. You look and sound the way you always did, yet you're not the same and when a city wind begins to call out, its voice doesn't only hit the edges; it connects. It blows into you, rather than in spite of you. Sometimes you feel like its calling out for you.